I'm the nice girl. But I'm dumping that name.
It’s time for me to be selfish.
Because yea I’m that one friend. I’ve always been that one friend.
You know what I’m talking about- the friend who does anything for anyone at any time.
I’d go out of my way to do anything for you. I’d bring you coffee at work or stop what I’m doing to help you solve a problem and give my time to help you do something I really don’t want to do. I’m a shoulder to cry on. I’ll drop my plans if you ask to hang out and never say “I don’t want to hang out”.
I’d rather my heart be broken than yours. I’d help you hide a body. I’d push you out from in front of a car.
I’m that type of friend. I’m that type of person. It’s just who I am.
I don’t apologize for it at all, but I do want to apologize that I can’t be that person for anyone anymore.
I’m so sick and tired of being so nice that I let people run me over, treat me like crap, disclude me from events, and keep things from me because they know I won’t get mad when they do something to hurt me and that I won’t get pissed if I’m not invited to something.
I’ll forgive you no matter what and if you break my heart, I won’t say a word.
Well, welcome to the new me. I’m going to be selfish and not selfless sometimes. I’m going to say no and think about myself first. I’m tired of being the nice girl who gets tossed aside and stepped on because “she’ll forgive me no matter what and she’s so nice so she’ll do anything for me.” I’m not going to drop everything to answer your call and I’m not going to bend over backwards for you.
I’m going to do what I want, not what you want.
I’m going to have a moment of heartlessness because that’s the only way i’m going to be able to repair the heart that’s been broken and stomped on by so many people.
I’m so fucking tired of nice. I’m so over being caring.
So, I’m going on a journey to find the new me: a girl who doesn’t give a fuck what people think and, for once in her life, thinks of herself instead of others.