And In the End, You Just Loved Yourself More Than Me
By: Erica Alisse
This isnâ€™t a relationship. It hasnâ€™t been for a long time.
A relationship takes two people being there and caring for each other. It takes commitment and sacrifice. It's about making compromises and stepping out of your comfort zone every once in a while. And doing things you may not want to do in order to make another person happy.
The minute you enter a relationship, itâ€™s no longer just about what you want or how you feel.
But you've sunk so far into your own self-obsession, how you're feeling takes precedence over everything.
You canâ€™t see anything past yourself and your own feelings. You no longer ask about me or seem to care. You havenâ€™t even noticed how much Iâ€™ve changed or how distant Iâ€™ve become.
I spent countless hours pleading with you, begging you to see your hurtful ways. I waited patiently for months while you denied there was a problem and refused to take care of it. As that time went by, it only got worse. I hardly even recognize you now.
I didnâ€™t want to be with someone who valued me so little that he wasnâ€™t willing to make even a small effort. I was done chasing after you, and Iâ€™m done being the only person making an effort in this so called relationship.
I finally had to give you an ultimatum. I told you that I was tired of waiting and that you needed to go get help. And if you were still unwilling to take that step, I was no longer willing to stay.
In the end, your stupid pride and stubbornness won out. You made it clear that you were more important to you than I was.
So that was it. You wonâ€” no, your narcissism did.
Now you're free to love yourself more than you ever loved me.
But I won't let this go that easily. Because the truth is, you didn't win.
As of now, Iâ€™m living my own life. I wouldn't be caught dead waiting for your call or begging you for attention. Iâ€™m not relying on you anymore to be happy. Iâ€™m doing it for myself.
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