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Why is my mind always so heavy?

Why is my mind always so heavy?

By: Dasha hoskins

"I really don't like my mind right now. Stacking up problems that are so unnecessary." Heavy by Linkin Park


As of late, this certain lyric is constantly running through my head. It's the truth though, I'm constantly creating problems that probably don't exist. It's a constant battle between what is fact and what my mind has made up. It is a war zone within my self, and fighting a never ending battle that many have never seen. I have hidden it very well for many years and I couldn't take it anymore.


Right now, as I am typing this, my mind is okay. A white flag has risen, and I have admitted defeat. For those of you that know me, know that is a hard thing to do.

The next few lines of this song (don't worry, all I'm going to touch on this song. It's just this song relates to the now, as does every one of their songs)

"Wish that I could slow things down. I wanna let go but there's comfort in the panic. And I drive myself crazy, thinking everything's about me. Yeah I drive myself crazy, cause I can't escape the gravity."


That above is just a lyrical inside look into this complex mind of mine. Don't get me wrong, we all have our struggles, and somehow we survive. For those of us that are able to fight it off, and then for those that can't. It's still a scary struggle inside and out. I've been on both sides of the spectrum, and I'm still breathing. So can you.


Be here now.

You are enough.


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