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I Can't Keep Putting My All into Something That's Not Worth It

I Can't Keep Putting My All into Something That's Not Worth It

By: Erica Alisse

“Most relationships fail because one person was being loved too much and the other wasn’t being loved enough.”

Something always felt off between us. Even at our best, there was still something missing. I always felt like I loved you way more than you loved me. 

And I was giving way more than you were ever able to give in return.

From the very first day we met, I had to prove myself to you. You were constantly searching for flaws and reasons to push me away. It was like you never truly let your walls down with me, and I’m not sure you're even capable to do that for anyone.

I saw all the red flags, and I chose to ignore them. And that is on me.

As more and more time passed, it became clear that we didn’t want the same things. You were too haunted by your past to ever really move forward or commit to anyone.

You never actually wanted a relationship. You always cared more about your independence than anything else, and you didn’t want to be held accountable to anyone. 

You weren’t willing to put in the effort required to make a real relationship work. And that’s okay.

Because I know that someone out there is ready for me. Someone will be willing to give me all the things you couldn’t. Someone out there is waiting to love me the way I deserve and won’t hold anything back.

You weren’t that person for me, and on some level I’ve always known the truth. It was just a matter of convincing my heart. 

I won’t make that mistake again. I won’t settle for anything less than I deserve. I won’t stand by anyone who makes me feel alone or unloved.

We didn’t work out, and I will always miss you and care about you. But at the same time, I feel a sense of relief. I feel free now that I'm no longer being pulled down by you. I know in my heart that this is for the best. 

I learned so much from you, and I will never regret the time we had together. I don’t blame you or hold any resentment. You’ll always hold a special place in my heart.

But for now, I need to let you go. I need to find that one person who will truly love me for me, and you just aren’t it.

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